Meg! I LOVE YOU:D She's taking out her braces tmr. Omg. :[

Today, we ended school at 1.15pm today. We had to stay in the hall in the morning & read a stupid book. ARGH, sickenning. I was eating gummy bears & smsing cause there wasn't, not even one teacher around to watch me or anyone:D Mr ow gave a stupid talk & ended up being a history lecture. We had an english compre test & I think I did alright. :]

Maths was okay, Physics was like shit. Omfg, Miss Ong's lessons are such a bull. >:(

After school, went to meet Baby & the rest at Dover. It went fine for like 45mins? Headed back to school cause they all needed to collect their results. I was worried sick. D:

Megan & I walked around school & headed to the hall. :/ Baby was alright & all.

Till a freakin' shit happened. Im too fed up to talk about it. I teared, & I was trying to hold my tears back. Didn't wanna cry in front of Megan. :/

I don't know lar, I feel so upset with myself & all. I keep crying when I reached home.

Mummy fetched me from school & sent megan to a certain bus-stop. Etc...

Im too tired to type. Im not exactly "in the mood" now. I feel so tired, so useless. I miss Baby so much. :'[ I keep tearing & sobbing. It feels as though, Baby & I broke up. :'[

I guess his Poly stuff are much more important now than me. Bet he's excited for Poly & all. Well, honestly saying, im not, AT ALL. We WILL drift apart, we'll meet each other less. We would talk on the phone less often. Soon the love for each other would fade. :'[

Im just saying, I didn't say it WILL happen. It's just feeling okay.

I hope Baby & I would still be together although he's in Poly & meeting new people.

(though, I'll feel insecure. :'[ thinking of it, hurts me so badly.)

Baby, I love you so much & I love you with all my heart K. I don't know why but im really hurt so badly by what have been done. :'{ I've cried, so much. I kept thinking of you Baby. I miss you. I wanna see you so badly, I wanna hug you. I need you Baby boy. :'{

I feel really insecure. :'{ it hurts, so bad. I keep crying. I have to force a fake smile throughout the day in front of my friends. I MISS YOU SO BADLY. :'{

Today was alright. I couldn't much smile like how I really really do. I've tried, & when I did, it's only for 5 to 10sec? I kept thinking of Baby all day long. I cried in the bus on my way home. I can't stand how much it hurts in my heart.

I was so tired this morning in all the classes. I didn't sleep last night, I layed on my bed, thought & cired, thought & cried. I wanted to call fiq for help. I didn't wanna disturb him.

I don't think im gonna sleep tonight too, although I smsed Baby telling him goodnight & all.

I'll try to sleep. I guess I'll end up crying to baby again.

I miss Baby so much :'{ He's probably enjoying his dinner at some college party right now.

I hope he's alright..

GAHHH, tears keep running down my face. :'{ I miss you dennis. Ever so much! :'{