To be honest...

(& to be really honest, I can't stand looking into the mirror at myself anymore.)

I feel really uncomfortable being myself when I always feel really wierd from others. I mean, people look so normal, but I look different. Yup, everyone is different, everyone looks different, but for me, I'm looking different in an ugly way.
I really wanna get surgery for my skin really badly... & I think I will.

I don't even wanna look @ the mirror anymore. All I see is an ugly scumbag that the world can't accept. I don't even know why I bother wanting to be accepted by the world even though I know that not everyone can accept me. I guess it's always because of how I feel, that is not pretty enough. Even my mom & dad said I ain't pretty.

I wished I never was born this way, really.