Sore body :(

My body hurts now.
& I'm guessing only Nicole knows how sore I am. Lol.

Whoooo! Thank God for today's training. It wasn't as tiring as yesterday. Movements was more or less fixed. :)
Started on the dance piece, just a 1st draft. & again, training dragged by a half hour.

Attitude phrase, Waitress phrase, Circle phrase, Hopscotch Phrase, Leg Rhythm phrase & the Dance piece draft1 phrase.

Next, taught Nicole the teacher's day dance 2007. Had to improvise & change some movements. & Nicole was all confused. Lol.

The next dance, went over to the other dance room where Vanessa & some others were teaching the student leaders the Soulja Boy dance. Funny story how they decided to use that dance for sec1 orientation -.-

Hung out with Nicole in the dance room from 4pm to 6.30pm. Had to wait for mommy for an hour till she reached. Ahhhhh, I'm so tired right now.

& you know what I realised?

It's much better to do your quiet time like when you're at a cooling place with fresh air & breezy wind than to be at home in your room.
I've tried it :) It feels so much relaxing, and to me I can understand much better that way than to be sealed in my room doing my quiet time. :)

& ANOTHER THING that's pretty upsetting...

& my mother said to me in the car yesterday that got me pondering over it till today... :\ I don't know what to do or say when she told me that.

She said: "Your Gou Gou (my aunt on my dad's side) has been telling me everything about Christian Christian things for many many years already that's why now she give up. Don't waste your time telling me about your believe. You believe what you want, I believe what I want, just don't change it."

When she said my aunt gave up on speaking to my mother about God & all, I really got a shock. & my aunts & uncle on my dad's side are all Christians.
My recent family dinner with my relatives on Saturday was with my dad's side & yeah I could see my aunt refrained herself from talking about Christianity when my mother was around. :\ Which to me, it's pretty discouraging.

& I thought to myself, so the past few times since I've came to church, when I spoke the Gospel to my mother, did it even mean anything to her? :(
So am I to stop speaking to her about God, or should I continue? Because I'm worried that if I continue doing so, that she'll get pissed off.

Andy Chia always tells me this, he said "remember, when you speak about God to someone who's a non-christian, remember that you have already planted that seed in their life, just need to let it grow & feed it with water."

But now, how am I to when she has closed her heart. It's really an all of a sudden thing. I imagined last night, that I would be seeing my friends all in Heaven, my dad & sister, but not my mother... It scared me pretty badly. :\

Please keep my mother & I in prayers. I really don't know what to do now, it feels like whatever I've said to her were just words that has no value. But every word I speak to her, it means alot to me, because I know it's God who wanted/wants me to speak forth His word & when I do, it's very satisfying in a way...

God, I need Your guidance.

(Sometimes I wonder, when will my mother ever realise how I feel rather than keep giving into my sister & making me feel so left out.)