Baby, I love you so much & I love you with all my heart K. I don't know why but im really hurt so badly by what have been done. :'{ I've cried, so much. I kept thinking of you Baby. I miss you. I wanna see you so badly, I wanna hug you. I need you Baby boy. :'{

I feel really insecure. :'{ it hurts, so bad. I keep crying. I have to force a fake smile throughout the day in front of my friends. I MISS YOU SO BADLY. :'{

Today was alright. I couldn't much smile like how I really really do. I've tried, & when I did, it's only for 5 to 10sec? I kept thinking of Baby all day long. I cried in the bus on my way home. I can't stand how much it hurts in my heart.

I was so tired this morning in all the classes. I didn't sleep last night, I layed on my bed, thought & cired, thought & cried. I wanted to call fiq for help. I didn't wanna disturb him.

I don't think im gonna sleep tonight too, although I smsed Baby telling him goodnight & all.

I'll try to sleep. I guess I'll end up crying to baby again.

I miss Baby so much :'{ He's probably enjoying his dinner at some college party right now.

I hope he's alright..

GAHHH, tears keep running down my face. :'{ I miss you dennis. Ever so much! :'{