How am I gonna trust those people whom I love very much now?
I can't trust those whom I love. I mean, besides my 7 best girl friends & like 3 other people from church, but other than that, I can't trust anyone else. I mean, the people whom you love, ends up hurting you & pushing you to the wit ends.
I can't tolerate anything anymore, it's too much already. 1 problem after another.

Today in church, tell you man. If you've read my previous post, I mentioned that church is always the best part of all Saturdays. But today, it's more like the worst.
I didn't feel God's presence, I didn't do anything to the best of my ability. I felt like I learnt nothing. That those words where just plain words,y'know? This sucks mannn!!!!

Though in sermon feedback, I wrote saying that even though we might break the covenant we made with our friends, but God never breaks His covenant with us. But still, I can't easily say that, but in my heart, I know I just simply know that. It's not that I can fully find that it's totally true.

I'm drawing really far away from God. This is really bad okay. I don't wanna fall away from God. But I'm really very tired of these problems.
1 problem is bad enough. Now, another came. What the hack? My life is like really screwed up now.

Anyway,mommy's birthday today. We didn't go to Crystal Jade. Dad brought us to a restaurant @ Keppel Club named PeraMakan. It's like some restaurants that cooks typical dishes in S'pore, but better. Ain't that bad.

Whatever, I don't wanna blog anymore. I feel really dead on the inside.
Yup, very easy said. "Turn to God."
Shut up, it's easy to say, I KNOW. I can say these kinds of things at times too. But I'm not gonna say it now because it wouldn't mean anything. I feel really screwed to the max.

But who can I tell my problems & feelings to? I'm afraid that when I talk to the person about my problems, that the same thing will shoot right back @ me one day when I have a conflict with whoever that person is. Y'know? Like the person for example says, "don't worry lah,you're not what they say." but when he/she says that, one day when there's conflict between us, the person who told me that ends up being in the position who insults me. Like wth? WAH, $^*(*&^!$#^!

I don't dare to tell anyone about my problems. As in literally, ANYONE but obviously I can tell those whom I've been talking to & all lah. But seriously, my life's really screwed up.

Now, how would I know who I really am, when now I don't even know who I am.
Some people say this, other say that. So who in this freaking stupid dumb world am I?!
Okay, I am not what people say, only what God says.
ARGH! Just understand me okay! I don't know where's God. I don't know where to turn to!

Whatever, there's no point saying it here. I mean, this is really platypus sai.