I'm blogging early in the morning now because I really wanna let out how I feel here.

Have you ever have a friend, who's your best friend & you two were super close, every problem you have, you can always rely on your best friend for a listening ear, cheer ups & advice?
Yeah, I have a best friend like that. In fact, Megan & Marissa are the once always there for me(talking 'bout close & good friends yeah). I can always look to them for a listening ear & they never turn me down. They two are the most trustworthy people I can ever think of & find.
Of course, all the people from my cell too are awesome, but in most things, I'll look for Marissa & Megan to help.

Well, this thing I'm posting is actually to my best friend, Syafique. I don't know if he's gonna read this or does he even come my blog? I don't know, but if he does, I really wanna let him know how I feel 'bout what's happening between him & I.
Don't you just hate it when you & someone who're really close, & one fine day, he/she gets a boyf/girlf then the last thing you wished to happen, happened when he/she has a girlf/boyf?
I'm talking about friendship.
This may sound hurtful or whatever, but I'm just as hurt as you are, Fiq.
We are best friends, but since you've got a girlf like 2months ago, we totally cut connections with each other. & at times, when I need someone to talk to, someone who understands me & someone who can give advice from the guy's point of view, you're never there anymore.
& about the girlf/boyf thing, I learnt something 'bout it church which I'll blog about it when I feel like it later.
But well, to everyone, even me in the past, their boyf/girlf is the one who "means the world to them". They are first in every aspect. It's not as if you're married.. :/ Because family comes 2nd.
All I'm trying to say here is this,
Fiq, I really don't know what happened between us. It's like suddenly one fine day, we don't talk already. You go home late because half the day you're spending time with Lynn, & even as I try calling you a million times, you never called back despite the fact that you know I called.
If you say you girlf is first, & family's 2nd, 3rd is friends, I don't see the "3rd is friends" thing happening between us. I'm not even in the 3rd! & I'm not just your friend, we're best friends, closer than ordinary friends, I can trust you, & you know you can trust me too right.
But why is it that all your time in the day, is all put onto your girlf & not sparring some time for your friends, like me?
I can't look to Dennis for any help because he is busy with his stuff & we're not as close & talking anymore.

I really don't like it that your time is all spent onto your girlf. Yeah, whatever she's important mah... But still! So important that she took the time we once always had for each other? Trying to say that our friendship isn't important?
If you're reading this, I don't want you to come & everyday talk to me or whatever. I don't want it to be, I FORCE YOU TO TALK TO ME that kind of thing. No. I'd rather you be talking to me & meaning it that our friendship is important. Because I tell you one thing, I HATE people who ignores me in a friendship because of their BGR & when their relationship is over, they come back talking to me. I HATE IT ALOT. Because it's as good as using me just a replace.
Don't tell me you don't have time just for a talk on the phone. 5mins of your day, will it kill ya?
If it's your girlf who's telling you not to talk to me, then I have nothing to say, because that is not an understanding girlf. That's a girlf who's controlling your actions & not trusting you.
I'm really hurt for the fact that it totally seems our friendship is like a toy. Can be thrown & played around. Every friendship of mine is something I treasure. If you're close to me, you will know how much I treasure friendships.
I miss you Fiq. (not in a boyf way -.-) I miss talking to you about my day & problems. You're never there for me anymore..

I'm gonna go for bible study later.It's horrible enough that I have friends, not only Fiq, who has changed & not there for me anymore.

This is an update. Well, yeah I didn't go for bible study in the end. I really don't have the mood to. & it's not because of what I typed above. It's not because of that k.

ANYWAY, It's back to bangs :)!
Mom saw me being sad & all so she asked me if I wanna go with her for a hair cut. Abi said I don't suit short hair which was what I intended to cut, but I didn't in the end.
:D I'm in bangs again! Well, I can shift it to side too. I keep layering my hair non-stop.
Sis also knew I was sort of sad. She over heard the conversation I had with Sarah on the phone last night & she knew something was wrong or happened in church yesterday.
Nothing really happened.. Just something I feel that I don't wish to share it here.
My sister is really great, (except for the part where she can eat all my foooood! HAHA.)
She really always there for me through it all. Sis asked me if I wanted to go to City Link & have the ice cream with her again today. But with the mood that I was in, I didn't go with her though I'd love to eat some yummy ice cream that could cheer me up.

Title: Twirls, Spirals & Spins of life.
I have no artist statement about that what-so-ever. I just felt like doing that & form in the way of how I feel.
Well, I'm really bored now anyway. Gotta go to bed now!