I didn't sleep all night, I couldn't sleep. I just came home this morning. I walked to places I didn't reconized. I've cried so much & why does it hurt?
Dennis, I feel guilty don't you get it? :'[ I feel guilty being with you when I don't trust you as much as last time. I didn't want it to end this way.
You were pissed with me when you talked to me on the phone. I called you many other times, I didn't someone to be there for me so badly. Im sorry okay. :'[
words can't express my deepest apologise to you. I wanted to see you so badly after that. The biggest mistake in my life. I wanted to tell you something face-to-face. By then you already reached home. I was so heartbroken too. I felt your heartbreak.
Don't you know our heart still beats as one? :'[ Im crying so badly right now. I can't take it, I wanna end my life for real right now. But I can't cause I know you need me in your life. I can't take the pain anymore.

Why is your phone switched off since last night! :'[ I wanna talk to you so badly. You weren't there for me anymore. Im heartbroken too okay, it's not only you. Every hug and kiss yesterday was the last. & everytime we hug & kiss, the only feeling that runs in me is guilty-ness. It doesn't feel right to be here, Im upset with myself too. Till I heard your voice when I called you, you sounded so pissed with me, and all you said was "over then over lor."
that's it? I was crying so badly. You mean all these while you've been thinking that im immature in my thoughts & saying?? :'[
I don't have any hate in you. I STILL LOVE YOU, EVER SO MUCH & SO DEEPLY.
I didn't eat the whole night, I didn't sleep at all.

DO YOU KNOW THAT I WAS SO WORRIED FOR YOU? I MISS YOU SO MUCH OKAY. & your phone is still switched off now. I need you so badly. Im really worried for you don't you get it! :'[ you didn't call me last night at all, you didn't reply my smses.

I still care you know? Dennis, do you know! :'[ But now, you don't care about me, you're not even giving a fuck about how I feel. Im feeling guilty enough already okay. You've called me, "sickenning, annoying, irritating, idiotic, immature & someone who doesn't know how to love." If it's all true, im not worth for anyone.
Im sorry im giving you my fuckenning attitude. I've tried changing you know?? :'[ I really did! You could see that too. I still care okay! I really still do.
as I sit here typing this post, all the tears run down my face & all that been through my mind is, "Where're you Dennis? Im so worried for you." I wanna talk to you so badly. I wanna hear the sweet voice of yours.
It's a misunderstanding okay, & I know that. By the time I realised it, it's too late. I can't turn back. Then again, the only thing that goes through my mind is, "im guilty." :'[

Dennis, please call me asap okay! Im really worried for you. I don't want anything to happen to you. I NEED YOU! :'[