S2E today, studied Maths & did a little of History. Stayed back with Cheryl, Enoch, Vanessa & Jazreel. Had a really hard time coming up with a dance routine for sec1 orientation mass dance. :\ Can't even decide on the song!

I really need to talk to someone right now. But all I'm afraid of is that I'll end up getting fed-up with the person for any particular reason.

I have deleted the all pictures of you & I off my computer. Next, I'm gonna delete our msn conversations. :( The feeling like a knife that's stabbing through my heart everytime I delete a picture of us.
I have to do so in order for me to not be reminded about us. I have to do it.

I'm sure you're alright now. I doubt you're affected by anything, & I don't even think you read my blog anymore.. But it doesn't matter. I don't wanna throw those stuff away, especially the ring which means so much to me. If I could, I'll return them back all to you. Even the jacket that we got together too.

The stuff toy that I always hug to sleep,since the day you it for me, I still, till now, hug it to sleep. I guess I'm very used to hugging it every night, or when I'm upset, in tears and all lonely. I'm really attached to me though it's just a stuffed toy, but it's the only thing I've ever hugged to bed in my life.
Am I to throw it away now too?

Everything's too precious to me.
I don't know how many of y'all knows how am I feeling right now... The feeling is more than just me losing you. It's like losing everything that's too precious to me, too valuable. & I love them all so much.
But if keeping them reminds me of you, I'd rather not keep them then. I don't wanna ever feel this way anymore.

Our blogskin picture, the one that Joylynn helped me photoshopped them all together, it's all gone from my computer. I don't wanna go back to my past posts to see them. I'll probably delete them all from my blog too.

I'm living my future now.
But it feels just like the past. Hurt, sad & lost.

I don't know why am I so stupid to let myself take that step backwards & start over again. I feel really stupid. Why did I even let myself, allowing myself to feel this way.
If this was only a dream...

God I need You.
I'll go do my quiet time now. I pray that God will speak to me through His word.