I can't stand my family.
I'm useless to them, they don't see my efforts.
Scold scold scold, forever scolding.

Since my mother said that she don't know what to do with me, then I really don't wanna be part of their lives anymore.

You know how heart breaking it is, to see my family just scolding me non-stop?
Even if I have a problem, they themselves scold me rather than help me.

They're gonna give up me when I haven't given up on myself. What a supportive family.

Mommy & Jie, I don't know why can't you just understand me. Don't you know how I feel? True, you two are like smart. I'm not, but now i'm only 15, you're gonna give up on me right now? & me just throwing away my 2nd chance to get back on track?

I'd rather not have any support from you two.

Isn't getting a 35 upon a 100, better than a 0 for maths? I still tried, but mommy, you said that I try, I studied, but turned out like kena sai, thanks alot. I needed that.

No matter what I do, you two never see my efforts.

What's wrong with dancing, tell me. What the hack is wrong with it?! If I like dancing, then so be it, I love it, it's my passion. What's wrong with singing? Tell me, what's wrong with it?

So what if I retain? SO WHAT?! Does it mean I'm stupid? NO! it only means that I'm slower than others. You just can't accept that fact.
Who in the world said that getting retained is a bad thing? Yeah, it's a waste of a year, but can't you just think on the long term side? That maybe it's a better way for me to brush up my foundation skills?

You're always so negetive towards me, ONLY see my bad points. Never see my good points.

I bet you all didn't see any change in me since I've came to church.
But I see the change in myself. Just that you don't.

Such a broken family I have.

I'm very troubled with my schoolmates & all that. Do you ever see it & realise it?
If you don't & say that because Ive never told you, think about the way you treat me first.

Everytime if I were to tell you a problem, instead of understanding me, you just end up scolding me for whatever the problem is. You don't wanna understand me first then talk to me rather than shouting right in my face.

I never dare to tell you all about my problems. I have to keep it all inside & if I really need someone to turn to, the people whom I can really talk to is the people from church.