Fairfield Goes Broadway, :D


Last night was talking on the phone with Dennis. Super emotional thing. I cried till my left eye was really bloody red & painful. Woke up this morning & I didn't feel like going to school. I still felt like crying very much.

I couldn't find my school tie. -.- Ended up going to school zipping up my jacket all the way so people wouldn't know I don't have my tie on. Bought a tie in school of course.

History class was a kinda boring today. Played abit of badminton for PE. It rained soon after. :(

I failed my maths retest. I've got 8/30 when the previous one I got 14/30. Could tell Ms Shamsiah was disappointed in me. :\ These few weeks, I can't concentrate in class, I can't study properly at all. Things keeps going through my mind. I can't help but to think of it as much as I try not to think of it. Super sleepy during physics again.


After school, I stayed back to do the English Project with Eveline, Nikita & Megan. Went to the library, then the com lab. Researched & did some photoshopping of our logo thingy. I was liquifying pictures of.... :D

I took bus back myself. Had dinner at home.


Dear Daddy, I really need to feel you with me. Especially these 2 weeks. I need your guidance, I need your love, I need your help, I need you there. Help me cope with all these stress im having now with my English Project. Thank you very much Daddy. Amen.

It's been different & rather difficult for me to live my life in the right way now. I can't study properly, I can't concentrate in class, I get pissed off & irritated easily. I keep saying i'm okay but actually in my heart, im not happy @ all. I'm happy at times, yes. But only for that moment.. I really need to make a choice. Cause you said you didn't know if you love me still even that lil' tiny bit or not. But it hurt me, really badly. I can't take it any longer.

I need to feel your touch. I need you here, right here just whispering to me & telling me that you love me with all your heart. Cause Baby, I really really really love you to the very core. Now, I can't do anything much to show you that I love you. But you said to me that they'll be a chance for us to get back together again if I understood & knew who you really are. But I think it's unfair. Im the one who has to be going to you again & again.

Y'know what, I don't wanna talk about it. It's too hurtful to know. But one last thing, I Love You Dennis.