Don't make our last kiss be our last. I don't know what to do without you. I feel so... helpless.
:( Very very helpless & useless. I feel my energy's drained most of the time, especially today.

Syafique talked to me on the phone last night. I kept crying like an idiot to him.
I can let go, literally, but deep inside? really deep inside? Did I let go? I mean, I feel like I did. But from the bottom of my heart, I don't think I did yet. :\ I miss Dennis, but he doesn't miss me anymore, the most hurtful thing to know from him. :'( I will still, never let you fall. I'll stand up for you forever more. I'll be there for you through it all. Cause I love you, & I mean it with all my heart, ever since 16th September 2006. Someone I loved the most, someone I loved whole heartedly & never failed to be there for me.. till now. :'( I miss Dennis. It's been 22days, I can't take it any longer. 2 more days, it'll be the 30th. :'( & it would be our 15th month anniversary, if we're still together. :'( It hurts so badly, I really can't take it. Weren't we the perfect match?


EFF LAH, I KEEP CRYING EVERYTIME I BLOG ABOUT MY DAY. ARGH!


I was almost late for school today. My mother still could took her time to drive. I was really worried sick! But anyway, I had chinese test today & it went alright, though I didn't study.
Ms Mok helped us in it, so it wasn't that bad. The canteen was super empty during recess. So much faster to buy food. Mr Ezal showed us videos of I think... The Weimar's whatever thing? Super gross. People were literally bones & still could move their legs! But they're in bed the whole time. They were starved to death due to some strandedness or something like that.

Had to leave lifeskills lesson for the briefing on the work attachment thingy. From what I heard work attachment is this year, it wasn't even one of the options that Mr Ho told us lah!
I guess im gonna ask my mother to write a letter to Mr Ho allowing me to work @ Tan Tok Seng Hospital. :D Near my house anyway!


After school, went to dover with Eveline & Nikita to do some interviews. I didn't even have my lunch! & now, im still not hungry. :\ Dance was okay. A little boring but still.
After dance, went down to the canteen with Gladys, Noelle, Wingsze & Yeewei. Gladys was all worried & all about something. So I told her.
"The truth will set you free. No point hiding anything & getting more trouble."
But anyway, I took cab back home today. & I almost left behind my video camera! Omg lah.
I closed the cab door & I looked in and I saw my video camera in it's pouch on the taxi plat form thingy.. The taxi driver droved a little. Then he saw me trying to open the door. I was so lucky. I thanked God in the lift. :)
Thank you Daddy! You did it again! :)


I'll always remember. It was late afternoon, it lasted forever but it ended so soon. You were all by yourself, starring up at the dark grey sky. I was changed.
All your feelings so deep inside. Was now that I realise, that forever was in your eyes. The moment that I saw you cry.
Do you remember the first time I saw you cry? :'( Do you still remember how it felt like when I wipe that tear off your face, how I looked into your eyes & told you with all my heart saying, "I love you Dennis." remember that? I wanna make your everything alright, but not this way of ending our relationship. Dennis, 1 chance. Just one simple chance, as much as it hurts, I still wanna show you that I still care. :'( But like you said, I don't know you yet. I don't know how am I suppose to react to that. But... I still wanna be the one who you cry on, the one who would wipe your tears away for you, the one who would tell you I love you in your eyes. Dennis, I miss you. :'(