I've been really lazy to blog lately. Which now makes me a busy one cause I have to remember all of what happened since Friday!

Friday, 22nd Aug:
In the morning I wasn't feeling too well when I woke up. Started feeling heavy & thought I was fine. I went to school, I had high fever. Right after school, I came home with a temperature of 39.2 degrees! I kept thinking like of all days in that week, why must it be on Friday when Saturday there's church & sis's BBQ! Prayers are really powerful yeah.
I got well the next day :)

Saturday, 23rd Aug:
Planned to meet Andy, Kirby & Shaun at Beauty World macs at 10am. But later dragged till 12pm, for me. I was too tired to do things quickly the way I'd normally do.
Instead of staying @ Macs to study, we went to buddies & coincidentally Doreen, Warren, Ryan (better known as musceles ming) & Joel studying already! They were there like 9am.

Gladys came to church :) Haha,we'll see who will be calling who Holy now. :D Had lunch together, Ryan was eating & he ate really fast actually. Ahh, Lisa should have been there to take photos of the unglam Ryan with no mussels. :D HAHAHA, it was hilarious after Mabel offered him fries despite him eating one bowl of spaghetti, he still took the offer of Mab's fries! The fries were all gone in a blink of an eye seriously. He practically gulped it down!

So anyway, we played Taboo & a little Wacko during cell. Taboo was like guys versus girls & girls won lah like duh :D Sharing by Andy was about purity. How much have we kept ourselves pure in our thinking & what we do physically. It actually got me thinking...

Service! Pastor Daniel was sharing on the 9th commandment which is, "You shall not give false testimony against your neighbour." In other words, DO NOT LIE.
Lying is actually something that's within us. It takes place when we're afraid of saying the truth because of maybe, what others might think of the truth.
I believe that in everything, we have to T-H-I-N-K before we do so.
T- Is it True?
H- Will it Help?
I- Is it Inspiring?
N- Is it Necessary?
K- Is it Kind?
Have we thought of anything else like the consequence before we lie? I believe most of the time, we don't.
We must realise that the truth is vital & that lying is serious.
We might be thinking that we lie almost everyday & we get away with it. Well, lies can change everything. Everything we say can change tmr's happenings. Think about it.
Pastor Daniel listed down the top 10 typical Singaporean lies. & I totally stand in the very 1st! Which is, "I'm on my way." but actually, it's either I'm still loitering out with my friends or if I'm meeting someone, I haven't left my house.

We might think that a white lie is just a small lie. But it still doesn't change the fact that it is still a lie. Why tell a white lie when you can tell a colourful truth?

There are 7 things that God detests & 1 of them is lying. It can be found in Proverbs 6:16-19.
Even though when we lie, many of times we don't feel that God is upset with us. Sometimes, we don't even care about what God says or feels because all we can think about is ourselves. We're so selfish don't you think? We don't think about how God feels about what we do. Only in the good times when he blesses us with something or someone, we thank Him & acknowledge that it's because of Him, that good things happen.
Yes, we lie multiple times, but don't you think it's enough? Even so that God is forgiving, I think enough is enough. No matter how gracious God can be in forgiving, I don't think it's a game we should be playing with God non-stop every day. I don't think it's fun for God especially.

I'm relating the part where I find that we humans are selfish towards God sometimes, that to me, at times, I too don't care about God. In terms of dressing for one. We don't feel God's heart hurting & crushing when we sin against Him. That's why when we're too prone & too reliable on the forgiveness, we tend to break any 1 of the commandments, to sin against God without having to think that His heart is breaking. & yes, God's heart can break too. Imagine how upset God can be everyday with not just 1 of us, but this whole world of sinners.
But it takes just 1, to make a difference in His heart.

God is a gracious & forgiving God. Don't wait till the day you die or during judgement day & tell Him that you're sorry for all you've done because, my dear friend, it's too late for that. We'll never know when we'll leave this earth.

So after service, Andy, Kirby, Kitsing, Gladys & I cabbed down to my place to go for my sister's BBQ. Everything from the weather to the event, turned the opposite way than to what my sister & I planned. It rained, :(

Ben & Marissa came too. But didn't manage to take pictures with them. They left early.
It's been a long time since I've last saw Ben! Okay not really long. Saw him on 1st Aug, but still. Long time since him & I catched up with each other.

Cut cake, Andy, Kirby, Kitsing & Gladys left. Megs stayed at my place till late. :D Had alot of fun even though it was pretty screwed up.

Sunday, 24th Aug:
Planned to meet Kirbs, Andy & Gladys at Westmall in the morning. But in the end, Dad told me that I have to go to the temple with them to pay respect to my ancestors.
I never knew that Christians can't burn joss sticks, still Andy told me over the phone. Y'know I was so fearful to tell my dad that I couldn't burn? I was so afraid he'll flame!

Andy prayed over the phone for me & it actually gave me this peace in my heart, that everything will be okay.
Thank God :D everything went fine seriously!
I stood my faith. The conversation with dad was like... Actually with my mom first cause I was too fearful to tell my dad straight.

Me: Mommy I cannot burn joss sticks leh.
Mommy: You tell your pa lor. It's your pa's father what.
Me: Help me lah mommy. I very scared to tell him.
& at that point, I felt really totally helpless. I walked up to my dad...

Me: Pa, I cannot burn joss sticks leh.
Dad: Can lah can lah.
Me: Cannot, I can only pay respect by coming & visiting but not burn joss sticks.
Dad: Can one lah! Respect, then respect by burning joss sticks.
Me: Pa, really cannot....
Dad: Pa last time go church, I say can means can.
Me: No, God said cannot.
Dad: Tsk! If you don't, I don't let you go church anymore.
Me: Don't then don't lor! It's not gonna change my belief in any way.
Dad: *Kept quiet.*

& I didn't burn or do anything but only, help my mom & dad set up the stuff :D Thank God He gave me the guts to do so! My dad is obviously wasn't pissed off with me. He was just in lost of words.

Went off the the church to visit my grandma's erm... What's that called? The church were they place the ashes. Yup. :) It was so much more peaceful & I feel so much more comforted in there. I was like talking to grandma even though it wasn't in person, but I was talking to her like telling her how I stood up for God that she is with now & all that.

Dad sent me to church after that. I missed bible study :( But I managed to go for the baptism service! Qien got baptised! :D
Yup, stayed a little while. Kirbs, Gladys & I left. It was raining so heavily!
Kirbs & I had lunch at Westmall's Pasta Mania. Went home after so.

TODAY, 25th Aug:
I didn't attend school today & I heard there's alot of drama in class!
I woke up having the whole of my right leg having rashes everywhere. It was so itchy & painful. :( I thought it was hives. Luckily it wasn't. But it still looks really gross. I have an ulcer bite on my left leg. -.-

I was being a pig the whole dayyyyy. I lost my appetite too. :\ Oh well, anyway I finally blogged after so long that I finished typing! Yay. There you go reader :)