Last sunday's pictures. Many many many more, Im just lazy to upload them all.


See, it's so annoying that my mother ruin's my day once again!!!!!!! ARGH!
She wouldn't allow me to go to church unless my sister comes along. -.- Then she dares to say that I'll brain washed. Brain what wash! It's not gonna make a difference that my sister's there right!!! Gosh! My sister thought that church was on Sunday. So means to say, im not allowed to go. Like what the bleh?!?!?! What difference is it gonna make that my sister's gonna come to church with me & not? It's just "brain washing" another mind right. My mother's super unreasonable. Not like my sister coming to church would change anything but her life & not like she being there would prevent me from getting brain washed right. :\
For one thing, she's not allowing me to go to church because she doesn't allow me to be a Christian. What pang sai -.-. She thinks she's always right, forever right, super smart.
I can't wait for my father to come home later so I can tell him everything.


Today, Im suppose to be sharing during cell. I prepared everything last night already, thennnnnn, that woman comes ruining it. Anyway, I talked to Esther on the phone last night for more than 2 hours. Haaha. We're so alike!
So since I can't share during cell, I shall post what I've prepared here then.


Mark 11:24 says, "Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it & it will be yours."
You know sometimes we pray & we don't really put our heart into it & that we think that God wouldn't really grant our prayer request? Well, when it comes to admitting your problems, "Admit with your mouth & believe in your heart." that's what I've learnt from Warren. At times, we think like, "why is God taking such a long time to answer my prayer?" Maybe it's also because that we don't believe with our heart enough. We take prayers for granted sometimes too. We sometimes think that, "orh God will provide us with what we've prayed for..." but in the end, if we keep on having that mind set, you will soon end up praying to God for something that you want rather than worshiping Him & thanking Him for all He has done for you.


I have a friend from my primary school & she was once a Christian but was taken away by the devil. She was a really devoted person to God. There was this one time when she kept praying to God about all her problems, & indeed we all know that God answers prayers, but at His own time, within His will. Then she began to have this thinking that like, "Just pray & you will sure get what you want." So like, what she meant was that, you just need to pray & you will know that it will come true. That you also don't really need to believe with your heart to let it come true that kind. So she had this conflict with her friend & she began to use the power of prayer to curse her friend. Then slowly, she thought that God didn't gave her what she wanted like what she cursed her friend, & she realised that cursing is like strength given from the devil. Then she stopped going to church, but slowly she came to realise that she had lost her friends. Then she chose to worship.. the devil which was indeed a sad thing. She ended up being an emo scene kid that worships non other than the devil till today.


I chose this to share with my cell cause I think that we have to be careful in everything that we do & not be taken and carried away by the devil.

When we pray, we have to always remember that yes, God will give us what we want but within His timeline that He knows when is the right time. & we definately have to be more patient with everything that we pray for. (Especially myself.)


"For God does not show favouritism." Romans 2:11
You know, sometimes we also think that like, "eh, how come she gets what she prays for first when I have not gotten mine yet?" Don't ever think that because Oh cause God likes her more and that she's much more special in God's eyes compared to the rest. NO, God loves us all very much, He loves us all equally the same. :) God is an awesome God who is fair in every way.


Of course this sharing is to everyone to read. But mainly I decided to post it here is because I can't make it to church & for cell. I decided to show it to everyone here instead.
Im can't go out today. I really wanna go to church. My mother smsed me saying "Can you put your family as first priority and not your church? Family ties first okay not church."
I wished they were all Christians & understand what in the world im going through. It's so unfair. I miss Daddy. :(
All the things said above in my sharing, is also for me to take note of. It totally speaks alot about me too, except the devil thingy on my friend. :\
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Come to think of it, I really look up to those who can go to church & parents have no restrictions & objections of them becoming a Christian. Really.
& yet, there are some who's parents allow them to be Christians & they them self don't use that to go to church & worship their Creator. When I want to worship God, I can't. I guess that you people who are Christians & your parents have no violent objections better be glad that you have understanding parents, that they give you your freedom in believing Jesus Christ. Use that to bless others okay? Cause I can't do anything much but stay home every Saturday as much as I want to sing praises to God. I really wished I can. So please, you have that opportunity, use it to bless others. Don't take it for granted cause people like me, I am a Christian but my parents are not allowing me to be one. Im being a Christian without them knowing. They forbid me from going to church, be happy you can go. Use all that to worship God & thank Him that you can, because I wished I could. & If I could, I will worship my heart out to Him alone.


& now, I have only to praise & worship God at home. I don't mind, but I really much prefer to be in church rather than worshiping Him alone at home. At least I can praise Him with my mouth & heart. Cause some people, they're mute. Which makes me feel more thankful for what I have. :)
I guess we all have to keep God alive in our hearts & minds.
Just remember, God is like our Macdonalds/KFC/Burger King/Sushi/Hotdog/Whatever else nonsense that we eat everyday. But God is not nonsense. :) Haha. He's just that junk food we eat everyday that makes us feel happy & make our belly's full. & please don't forget to thank God for the food we're having everyday alright! For all you know, one day, the earth will go food-less. Just to be on the safe side, thank God for everything!
Gaaahhh, I miss Estherlyn now. I miss my whole cell group lah. They're having cell now, without me. :(
- Edited at 3:03pm

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Okay like, my parents are both thinking that anyone becoming a Christian means neglecting your family members. Yes, it's true that we put our creator first. & yet, my mother smsed me saying, "can you put your family as first priority and not your church?" #1, I always look invisible to them. What parents strangles you, slaps you, pinches you & kicks you? Do you call that family? How am I suppose to put them as first priority when we're not even bonded at all. Yeah, we don't have to be bonded to put each other as first priority. But my family life is really simple. We do the exact same routine everyday, & how am I suppose to put them first when they themselves don't allow me to speak up to them & tell them about how I feel? That's not putting ME first. Everytime, when I ask about my parent's business, when I ask simple question, they scold me & shouts at me saying, "ask so much for what!" -.-
So much for asking me to show concern. (& even for your business.) they want me to care for them, I try. But they're always so busy to spare anytime for my sister & I.


I know who is my Creator. Why must I let the devil change my mind about that? HE CAN'T & HE WON'T, HE NEVER WILL. Im way to bonded with God. I so much happier with God. And even if my mother is a Budhist or rather my family, & they believe in their "god", shouldn't they put their "god" first?? It's so contridicting.
But it's alright, cause I know what am I doing, that I am doing the right thing in believing Jesus Christ & there's no other gods, for it's only God & that is Jesus Christ. :)


Goodnight, ;) I have a wedding dinner to attend to tmr.