You're the only God, & my God. Here I am to worship, to bow down, here I am to say that You're my God. You're so wonderful to me.
I can't thank God enough for Warren & Mr Ren for speaking to me through them. :)
"I chose you when I planned creation." Eph 1:11-12 :) Mr Ren gave me that verse all of a sudden yesterday. & that's when I knew that I had to attend church already.
"Father, i pray that you open up Rosanne's opportunities. You see her heart that she wants to come into yr sanctuary to praise You. I pray that you will open up ways. I pray against any form of rejections, but God you will soften her dad's heart to allow her to go. In Jesus' Name. Amen!"
Mr Ren prayed for me too! Ahh, I feel so thankful to have people/teacher (he's a person anyway) like him. I feel so blessed & thankful for them.


Daddy, thank you so much for friends & teachers like Warren & Mr Ren. Thank you so much for speaking through them to me. I really can't thank you enough Daddy! & there's only one word to describe you, "Holy" :) & thank you for friends like Abi-Joy, Esterlyn, Darius, Andy & Wei Jie.
Even though I don't know them much, Daddy please open up my heart & help me to know them much much more! Thank you Daddy! Amen! :D


I woke up like 6.45am? Haha, I felt like blogging super early today. Oh man, I really can't thank God enough for the oppotunity for me to go for church again!!!! Im super thankful from the bottom of my heart. & I can't remember if I said this in yesterday's post. That I almost cried in service when we were praising & worshiping God. I was holding all my tears back cause I thought it'll be weird to tear while worshiping? I don't know :D
I guess later im gonna go sentosa with sis. Yup!

Edited, 9.17am:
So church is suppose to attended once in every 3 years? :'( My mother's not allowing me to go.
It's so frustrating. When I get so close to God & people who mean alot to me, she comes in and ruin it all. Now im crying cats & dogs. I don't know what else to say to convince her to allow me to go every week. :'( I really wanna continue to praise & worship God. But.. Because of her,now I can't go again. I guess im gonna ring up my aunt & tell her about this.
At least she's a strong believer in Christ.


Mom: Huh? Must go every week ah? No no no, cannot don't go.
Me: It's totally different from Budhist lah. Y'all only need to visit the temple on certain days.
Mom: But you're not a church person!
Me: *Kept quiet cause I know the more I say, I'll get a big scolding after that.*


It's so annoying to have parents or mothers who don't wanna listen to what you say & that they think they are always right. My mother thinks church is just to worship God that she thinks isn't real. She thinks that church is to only be attended once in a blue moon. She thinks like as if it's a temple that you don't have to worship every week.
I really seriously wanna continue to worship God the way I did yesterday. It felt so good to worship Him after 3 years. :'( My mother's really serious about not letting me go already.
I think it's also the timing. :\ it ends @ 8pm. But I think that if she's a Godly person, even in whatever unrealistic God that she prays to, she still should think that if it's for your God (whoever you worship), you wouldn't mind coming back late or travelling far because it's for your own God. As for me, it's for Jesus Christ. Yes, it may at Bukit Timah, damn far away, but I enjoy going there cause now, I've made alot of friends! & I love worshiping God with them & sharing my testimonials with them. :'( I wish my mother knows what's a blog, so she would read this post of mine & understand. :'(


Honestly, no one knows im a Christian except my school mates & my aunties on my dad's side who're also Christians. :'(
I'd rather get away from a family that doesn't allow me to pray to the God I believe in that's not their God, than to be stuck with them & not allowing me to worship in who I believe in.
But there's no one else who can kind of raise me up.
It saddens this little heart in knowing that im not allowed to attend church again.
Daddy, please help me.


I promised Daddy yesterday @ Church that, till death I will never ever surrender to any others to take away the fact that I worship Jesus Christ. & I will live up to that.
Not even parting me from Church will do me well. It's indirectly surrendering to another because he/she isn't allowing you to attend church cause of the God that he/she doesn't believe in. I would do anything, just to return back to church every week. I promise you Daddy.
But Daddy, please guide me through every step of the way. Amen.


Im so blessed especially when I have such great friends like Warren. I told him what happened & he called me and prayed for me through the phone. Even though it's just a phone call, the thought of him helping me & praying for me is so great. He's not someone I know very well. But still, he's really great. Im not sure if his advises are well to do, but like he told me, just keep praying & seeking God's help, telling Him what happened. Because, God does miracles(amen).