I just finished watching Mr.Bean on Disney! Just had my dinner too. I hate today so damn badly.

I came to school & I was sitting alone @ the table, cheryl told me emily they all were sitting @ another table just that their bags were at the original table we're sitting at. So I was pretty lonely. I wanted to go Baby's house, then I realised that he stayed over Suan Hium's house last night.

During assembly, I had this really wierd feeling that Mr Owyong's gonna ask the girls to pin up their fringe. He was looking at me during assembly cause my fringe was let down. I was afraid that he would ask people to stand up in front of the school due to the hair standards. But honestly saying, I think mine's fine, it's not covering my eye. But then again, Mr Owyong's standards changed to hair off the forehead. Oh well, no choice, I obeyed & pinned up my fringe.

I need to catch up on my art so badly! >:(

Chemistry was like _l_

It was pretty much a moody day for the whole class right after Chemistry which was Chinese. I didn't talk during chinese. Many many thoughts just went through my mind.

Recess was pretty lonely with Meg only. I don't know where did the rest went, but I was eating alone while Megs just waited for me to be done eating. Gladys's class was selling something, which gave a chao-ta smell. :D HAHAH.

OH.MY.GOSH. You do not know how pissed off & sad I was during english class! #1, I walked into class with meg, i don't know why, but the changing of sitting arrangement changed? & I wasn't around for the past 2days. I stand next to Meg, but we weren't @ our original sitting arrangement cause it was occupied by someone else. Then Meg said, "Ms Hia asked me to sit with her." -.-

The main thing was that, I was more like pissed with Ms Hia. Today, I feel super! SUPER unwelcomed. I felt super lonely the whole day, I swear I almost cried, I just held my tears back. Whole day, I've been controlling my tears. I don't wanna talk about what happened after that. But in the end, I sat alone with guys next & around me. Felt super left out. I don't know, but I feel that Ms Hia has something against me, honestly. =\

Physics was alright. Was pretty lonely too. Didn't talk much.

After school, I took bus & mrt with Hema to Boon Lay. I went to meet Baby for lunch. Had lunch @ long john. & I was complaining to him about my day, again, I almost cried but just at that moment, I felt that he would say something like, "cry for what... etc blah blah blah." rather than comfort. So again, I held everything back. Went to Precious Moments.. All the memories I once had all came back. ARGH! I saw this bear, holding this heart & it wrote, "I'll love you always." One tear dripped down my face. I quickly wipped it away & pretended nothing happened. & the song that they're playing was really damn touching.

Headed back to Suan Hium's house after that. I didn't talk all the way, I was seriously sad.

Watched some youtubes & mrt home with Baby. Again we didn't really talk for the whole journey. I went home myself. I freaking teared like mad right after he left. & seriously now I really wanna cry so badly. I got lost halfway, I don't know why, I stopped @ city hall. So I just decided to walk around for a lil' while to cool myself down. & head home again.
I didn't have the house key. I had to wait outside my house like some pathetic begger to wait for her to come home. I cried again. Yes I know, im such a cry baby. Sorry, but today's a really emotional day for me. I can't hold anything inside anymore. :'(

I bet dennis is not having much fun or enjoying the food right now @ his family dinner. =/

I know how he's really feeling. I know he has already said that he's full OR he don't feel like eating. Hais.. 2 more days, & it's our 14month anniversary. To celebrate or not, I know it wouldn't be one that we both are smiling together. :'(

I guess tmr, im going bladding with him & some others.. I wanna cry my heart out now.

Ps, dennis I know you miss me. I miss you too. :'( I love you so much, I need you right now. cause it's killing me softly on the inside but it's hurting so badly even the slightest slash pins through my heart. I LOVE YOU DENNIS. :'(