Have you ever thought why I said to you to go & die last night on the phone?
I held all my grudge, my disappointments, sadness, every single feeling about how I felt of what you've did, I kept it all inside me. I couldn't find the right time to even tell you how I feel. You used to tell me how you would feel about us so far. Now you don't. Cause you only cared about leveling up for your game. So is it my fault I said to you Go & Die last night on the phone?

It's NOT okay. It's NOT. Cause we had a horride break up just recently about this same thing. & yet, you still continue like last time.. How am I suppose to tell you how I really feel? :'(

Yeah fine, I take it as all my fucking fault this fuck happens to us. I've been too naive. I let myself believed that miracles could happen. I believed that we're the perfect match.

Thanks for just hanging up the phone on me after I said that your feelings that you once had for me, will never come back. Your only answer was, "bye." You don't know how fucking hurt I am right now. You said "i love you too" right after I said to you "i love you".
I can't really trust that that is really much true. Love is a great & awesome feeling, the feeling of love is so extreme, when one starts losing a lil' part of feeling of it, it's no longer called love.

I don't know how much feelings you've lost for me. But even as I said sorry to you, I meant it with every piece of broken hearts im having. But then again, it's never one's fault in a relationship. =\

Was a sorry heard from you? N-O. the only sorry you said to be about was you losing feelings for me. That's all. You weren't really sorry that you played so much that even when I was trying to tell you how I was feeling yesterday on the phone, you're still playing. Yes I understand, school's starting for you in another 18days. You wanna play, okay fine. But can't you stop playing & talk to me even as I go to sleep? Talk about how we feel about each other? :'( I believe that's important.

Honestly, Dennis you gotta learn you give yourself a limit to play till. When you're talking to me, I want your 100% undivided attention. I've always been getting that 100% from you.. But now, your game gets your undivided attention. Think about it.. How lucky are we to have such a free time to talk to each other before either one of us go to bed? HARDLY. Cause usually, one of us will be sooo tired OR parents are around or whatever. Yesterday was a great chance. Then we quarreled again. & in the end, you hung up and said you didn't wanna talk to me. I cried like one idiot. I vomitted.

Honestly saying, Dennis if you're not comfortable with me, let go then. Cause if im the one who only brings sadness to you, I don't wanna lie to myself anymore. It's totally up to you.

As much as my heart's really tired, Im still hanging on hard. Our journey is just starting. In 18days time, it'll be tougher, much much tougher. The love that we had, is just like a long stretch of monkey bars. When it rains, the bars get wet & we can't hang on properly. It feels like we're gonna fall, & in the end, we're not on the same bar together. My hand's already blistered, bleeding so badly, yet im still hanging on. Have you let go? Can't you see im trying to pull you back up & that im waiting for you in the centre of the stretch of monkey bars for you to catch up with me before I move on.? I don't wanna move on without you.. But when I have to, & when it's time for us both to move on, I will.

421 days together. Didn't we love back then? Wasn't it so sweet back then? We had so much fun! :') Thinking of them all, it's so gratifying.

Baby, starting anew is not easy at all. I want the Dennis I knew in September 2006. The sweet, nice-to-talk-to kind, ever so cheerful!

Will I ever feel that loved again? :'( All I wanted to do is to bring smiles to you, see you happy.

You need time to settle down, I'll give it to you. But if it happens that you fall for someone else, I'll be more than happy to say all the best. :') cause I was lucky to have you already. You're just such a sweet guy with many suprises!

Every second now makes me so much weaker. Every breathe is getting tougher.

Looking back on the things I've done, i realised I was trying to be someone, someone that'll be so special to you. Someone unforgetable, someone unique & different. I keep bringing you suprises!

I think I shan't talk about the bad times we had. :) Cause you & I need some cheering up I believe!

Hey Baby, smile alrightttt! :D Just forget about all the bad stuff! :) cause, Rosanne's still here for you & always will be! There will never be a goodbye. Cause I have faith that we will get through this together with no doubts. Cause no matter how tough it gets, I will & will never stop loving you. I don't want to anyway! :D OH, & dennis yeooooo, HAHAH, I realised something! YOU'VE NEVER ASKED ME OUT. WHEN THE TIME YOU DID, IT'S ONLY WHEN WE'RE GOING OUT AS A CLIQUE! D: omg. Haha!

Anyway, I have to go sleep now! Going to school tmr. But im not fully recovered.
I'll leave y'all with this cute video I found. :D

PS, Dennis Yeo, SMILE! :D cause I'll always be here for youuuuuuu! Think happy thoughts! cause I just did & im happy now! Our heart's still as one, if im happy, you have to be too K. :D I love you sweetheart!