How do I breathe without you here by my side? How will I sleep, when your love brought me through the night?

I gotta come clean with you Baby. I don't understand why today, you're so different. It totally seemed that your PS3 game with Ben is so much more important than me.

Im injured, you know that. I smsed you telling you about it. Yeah, you adviced me & all. But actions are still larger than words. I was touched by what you said. You told me what to do & what not to do so I wouldn't strain my back. I was happy, till I asked you for little favour that if you could come to meet me @ vivo. Then you asked me back, to go over your place instead. Im already this injured. Travelling to your place & travelling back myself, it'll only hurt more.

When I asked you to just come over to Vivo to just meet me. I missed you so badly. My back hurts so much. I seriously felt like crying. Ask Syafique, he would know.

Then you replied my sms saying that Ben's going over to your place to play PS3. It broke my heart like crazy. I thought you cared for me? Cause if you really did love & care for me, you would @ least tell Ben to go your place later tonight or tmr or something since you guys ain't working anymore. This is just little sacrifice. It's hard to believe that what you adviced me to do & not to do, was really what you meant. Cause I didn't see your actions @ all. Seems so much that your game is much much much more important than me.
I was suppose to go out with Fiq tmr for lunch I guess. But I told him I would wanna meet you for lunch instead. You mean so much to me, words seriously can't explain. :'(

Well, you said you wanna relax, but just today, is it that hard for you to just come & meet me? Or were you too lazy? I don't know okay.. Im so hurt, I wanna cry on your shoulder, I need that hug from you sweet heart. I totally understand that you wanna play, but you're pushing it a lil' too far. I didn't plan to even meet you tmr for lunch. I wanted to spend it with my friends instead. But still, I gave it up for you, for us.

Im gonna hold every grudge I have about this situation, I don't want this to happen again, cause it's hurting me so badly even though you said you wanna relax. I'll give you that relaxation that you wanted. I'll just be alone for now I guess. You know how did I feel when I went home alone with my heavy bag full of books & my back pain? I felt super alone, like im in a huge burden.
Come to think of it, even if you cancelled today with Ben, he's not working no more too right? & Im sure he would understand that it's just for me and that the game is not as important. I don't feel like im your first in your heart anymore. I miss you so much. Where're you?
Are you thinking of me too? I doubt so, you're having fun playing now. I'll leave you be.

Im gonna pretend nothing happened. I don't wanna talk about this matter again. I just hope that our love will carry tmr's sorrows away. I love you Dennis, so much more than you ever imagined!