Im missing you so badly. But you can't feel how much I really mean it =,( Everywhere I go, I keep thinking of you non-stop. I need you Honey. You told me to put everything aside. Im trying, but still I can't. Im sorry =,(

I went out around 8.30pm to chalet at Tanah Merah safra. My friends were like all dressed abit the informal. I mean SOME of them, but like I was dressed quite formally. The first thing when I got there, the first person that talked to me directly asked me "Where's Dennis?" I sworn I could have broken down into tears. I just told her "=/ he's busy & I wouldn't think he'll wanna talk to me." Baby, do you know I was super sad yesterday? ): They planned the chalet FOR ME. & it was like a cheer up chalet kinda thing. There was alot of food, but I didn't have any appetite to eat. I was thinking of Dennis the whole time. Whatever I was doing, all I was thinking was "would you ever be back in my arms ever again?" then i'll start tearing. *sigh* I don't know what to do, it's more like your friends can put a smile on your face rather than me. You talk to them so much differently compared to me. & I still don't understand why is it only when it's nearing to something that's important then you'll wanna break. I seriously still don't understand & you didn't really explain to me why. Oh baby, I just want you back in my arms. When I told you "I miss you", the saddest thing for me was that when you answered me saying "orh,okay." that's it you know? ): Now you're not the person who can cheer me up. NO ONE CAN LIKE YOU DO DENNIS! I hope you know how much you mean to me. I SWEAR I WOULD DO WHATEVER IT TAKES TO WIN YOUR WHOLE HEART BACK TO ME. I SWEAR ON MY LIFE. & IM SUPER SERIOUS ABOUT THIS.
I went home around 12mn. I cried & I came home myself. I miss you being by my side holding my hand, hugging me, & me crying on your shoulder =,( but I guess you can't feel how much I mean every word. Im sorry, I really did my best through words, it doesn't work. Baby, i'll do EVERYTHING to show you that through my actions, IT WILL WORK. iloveyoudennis<3