It's never ones fault in a relationship. Even though one may hold the fault & responsibility, the other have to say sorry too right? cause in the first place, it's the two that started the relationship together. Now it feels like, I don't need an apology because it's both's fault, it's not a sudden thing. It's because both SHOULD know from the start it's like that.
& suddenly today, you said to me that it's always you who wanna hold my hand first, you who always hug me first, you who always kiss me first. All of the sudden, you don't wanna hold my hand till I had no choice to hold yours. Feels selfish don't you think? It's all of the sudden thing lah. "how manly of your boyfriend." pffts.
I thought we could talk on the phone anytime. & If I didn't give you a hug, you would miss me right? & if I didn't talk to you, all the more you should WANT to talk to me cause you would miss me. I don't understand what's up with you & you suddenly wanna only talk to me if I have something important to say?? :( don't you know it's very important for me to talk to you?
How 'bout this, since you said that, & i ain't that important for you to talk to, we shan't talk. Missing you isn't important right? Me missing your voice isn't important to you right? Thought you enjoyed talking to me everytime. :'( maybe you've found someone else better to talk to? I don't know... I thought i was important to you, & that starting a topic that we both could laugh about wouldn't be a problem. Cause it never was a problem last time. :(
if this continues, & when you enter into your poly and it gets worse than it already is now between us, I seriously see no freaking point of continuing with you.
Only gets me more hurt & now you're just thinking it's my fault. ME ME ME. forever me lah. :'(

Have it ever occured to you that im still growing, my mind's still changing? & that perhaps i'll turn MORE mature? that's what you always said right. "you're so immature in your thinking."
Well, im not saying that because I wanna use something or a saying to back up my feelings & actions. because it is true okay.
Now, you're saying alot of immature things that gets over my nerves sometimes. For now, whenever I find something you say that is lame, I tell you okay. Because nowadays, you hardly see me or hear me say anything much of "funny" or hilarious stuff already.
Trust me, my mind's changing okay. So's my body & heart. :( Hope you understand.
If not, more conflicts would happen & it'll soon be the end of us which I don't wish so.